Getting in over my Head

I've been thinking about things that are probably beyond me, in truth.

Life? Life. What is it? It's a span of time and space we are gifted to inhabit. We sustain it through intake of energy (food, breath, qi) and water, and rest.

So we have this time and space, and we can do, really, anything with it: join a motorcycle gang, work, farm, laze about, smoke pot, whatever. Our divisions of it, the way we organize and inhabit life, is all ritual.

Shiatsu is a healing ritual. Day Job is a money-earning ritual. There are family-building rituals, religious rituals, recreation rituals, romantic rituals, food rituals. Even communication is a ritual.

And here's the sticky thing, the place where our culture in general and my life in particular are off kilter. We spend a third of our lives (at least!) enacting the money ritual. I very strongly dislike my particular money ritual. It drains more of my time (which is life itself) and my energy (the fuel of life) than it deserves, maybe even more than it gives back in money.

But the money ritual is our cultural worship. I'm so afraid of what might happen if/when I stop enacting it. We're taught, often without words, that the money ritual is our definitive ritual. How does one disentangle from the money ritual, or make it a subsidiary of the healing ritual--as I hope to--and be safe? Be OK?

Interlude for Sacred PMS Venting

Things that have annoyed the crap out of me this week:

1. small children
2. The Dresden Dolls
3. small children
4. small children

On Capitalism

Is the Great Myth of the Mobile Classes a source of more Harm and Disappointment than Good? The serf, at least, can accept his lot in life early, and grow fond of, or at least accustomed to, bean stew and Taxation.

On Democracy

Do the masses of the People, by their collective vote, raise things to the Highest Ideal or sink them to the Lowest Common Denominator? I often fear the latter. Yet I would not take their stupid vote away.

One cannot serve two masters. One cannot serve NASCAR and Democracy.

On Anxiety

Bite your nails with relish! Enjoy your Anguish, and yea, it Shall dissolve.

On the Evil Coworker

You learn more from your enemies than from your friends.

On reading the Bible

It may or may not be THE Good Book, but it is A good book.

Whosoever would conquer the Evangelicals, Must do so with their own Book.

On Cooking

Never trust a skinny chef.

He who cooks well, has many friends.